My skin was tingling with all of the pent up anger. I knew I was pushing her away but I didn't expect her to actually go through with leaving me alone, let alone leaving completely. But this is what I wanted. It is what I wanted….right? I shook my head trying to force the thoughts out of my head. This is good. She can't get hurt if she isn't near you. She can't be damaged if she isn't in love with you. I can take being a lonely motherfucker. I can take being the broody single asshole. But god being with her last night, being in her arms, opening up about everything, being inside of her, tasting her, taking her was a dream. It felt like a little slice of heaven that I didn't want to give back.
It's not that I wanted to be unhappy or heartbroken. I wanted to have it all but I just couldn't
