DESIRE'S & FATE

Chapter *11*

HAPPY READING

Sibel Pov

"What are you doing here Ryon," I repeated and he shrugged. "I'm here for you," he said simply.

"For me?"

"I'll never let you go... Sibel. You are mine..."

"What do you want Ryon?" I asked after a few minutes of my heart palpitating and finally returning to its rightful place vibrating in my chest like normal. Only this man can do this to me and what in the world for when I made up my mind I was going to let it go. I was done.

"I want you," he said positively opening his menu.

"That's not possible," I said folding my arm.

"Who said so."

"We've been over this Ryon," I admonished putting my hand on the table.

"I've missed you, baby."

"And I've missed you but..."

"Why didn't you tell me," he said leaning in to take my hand but I snatched it back.

"Ryon!" I whispered.

"Let us eat something," he said after a few minutes of me not answering.

"We should leave," I said.

"Baby..."

"We should talk Ryon."

"I'm tired of talking Sibel."

"Then what are we doing here."

"Let me kiss you and you'll see."

"Ryon," I whined.

"It's undeniable

That we should be together

It's unbelievable

How I used to say, that I'd fall never

The basis is need to know

If you don't know just how I feel

Then let me show you now that I'm, for real."

"What?" What, what, what, he can sing too.

"If all things in time, time will reveal... don't make me start singing louder up in here," he said and I shake my head slowly.

"You wouldn't..." I leaned forward and whispered.

"One, you're like a dream come true

Two, just wanna be with you

Three, girl, It's plain to see

That you're the only one for me, and

Four, repeat steps one through three

Five, make you fall in love with me

If ever I believe my work is done

Then I'll start back at one."

He sang to me and I try to hide but a huge spotlight came over me and Ryon grabbed the wine menu I try to shield myself.

"Ladies and gentlemen, I'm in love with this sweet, stunning, stubborn woman. Who has made my heart race in ways that are a mystery to me and my doctor," he said and reached out to take my hand.

My lord...

"Aww," someone cooed.

"All I asked is for her hand to make my dreams come true."

"Come on..." someone else chanted and I had to. I took his hand and he pulled me to my feet and swayed me lightly as other couples join us and cooed.

I was deliriously happy and after the past few weeks a determined, charming Ryon was what I needed. I heard church bells ringing and I heard a choir singing my favorite song. Back at one.

I gawked at him and bit my lip suppressing the desire to lounge in his arms and kiss him. How could he be this sinfully tempting and determined especially when I knew he'd impregnated a woman and not just any woman but his best friend who'd he been f*****g for years. This had to be one of life's many mysteries. I seriously needed Jesus or psychiatric help and fast.

I have to thank that traitor the minute I get home but right after a scolding.

"Sib," he smirked crocking an eyes brow.

"I don't know what to do with you," I murmured.

"Say yes and I can show you," he chuckled and pulled me into his arms. He didn't give me a chance to answer when he began to sway me slowly.

He gently brushed the hair away from my face and cradle my cheeks in the palm of his hand and kissed me slowly. His eyes fixed on mine as his hand slid around my waist resting perfectly on the small of my back. Even though my back is covered I still felt the heat his hand emits. Maybe time stilled or was it my body, my mind stop all processing as his huge frame curls to fit mine. My body tingles and my heart pound in my chest intensifying this moment. It feels too good to be true and the dream I was dying to wake from I did not want it to end. So much comfort and safety his arms provide as he leans his head down to mine pressing his lips so softly I almost dissolved. He did not move, he just lingered at my lips, intensifying the moment. What feels like an eternity of waiting was happening before my closed eyes. My eyes flutter shut as raw emotions swirl in my gut. His lips finally parted, his tongue and lower lip entering my mouth taking me higher. My stomach becomes rock heavy with intense emotions, I have never felt. His other hand curl around my cheek and I take his pattern as I mold my lips to his following his movements as our lips sync and I wanted more.

"My heart sang for you... Sibel. I'm suffocating when you're not near and I cannot breathe no matter how hard I try. Sibel it's you... it's always been you. ever since the day, I laid eyes on you." he said.

"Why can't you be this romantic Clide, " I heard a woman admonish and Ryon chuckled.

"Please give me a chance to show you baby."

"Show me what?"

"Just how much you mean to me."

"Ryon," I mumbled and he spin me out of his embrace. He helped me back into my seat and took his seat opposite me.

I took in a deep breath and he took my hand, tracing his thumb at the back of my hand.

"Tell me," he said staring into my eyes and breaking my resolve.

”You've been something different... I wasn't expecting to still feel this way... and I" I stopped and sniffled feeling emotional with every gentle glide of his thumb.

"Why are you crying? I know all this... my situation is... will be a lot for you. But I would never ask you to if you don't want to. Sibel, I want to be selfish with you but I wouldn't if you don't want to." he said sincerely.

"You would?" I asked.

"Sibel I would do anything for you," he whispered quietly after taking a deep breath.

"Ryon I'm in love with you... it's starting to hurt me not saying it. I've tried to stop, to control how I feel but you... It just doesn't make any damn sense to me how I've been trying to let go and figure out why. Why can't I stop thinking about you and why have you occupied so much of my thoughts even when you are right here in my face? It makes no sense how obsessed I am with you and... and all the what-ifs I do not even imagine them. Even that does not make any damn sense to me and the only explanation that makes sense to me is that I'm in love with you."

He stared at me for a beat, the tears welled in my eyes and slid down my cheek.

"I want to show you what those words mean. I want to be the definition of those words for you Sibel. This is not the traditional start I was hoping for but I want to show you the weight of those three words. I want you to see every intention behind my actions as I prove I'm in love with you Sibel. Like you said it makes no sense that you changed my entire world, my view, and my beliefs... you make me know what more it could be and it's like a whole new world with bright new splendor. I never knew this feeling in my chest existed. I've seen it all around me, my parents, my brothers but I didn't believe it, I didn't see it coming but now baby girl I feel it. I didn't expect it to be you... I don't know exactly when it happened because I was fighting it for so long. I don't know what you did to me," he chuckled and I laughed a little and wiped my eyes.

"You make me feel all these f*****g things, baby. You make me want to be a better man for you, I want to marry you, I want to f*****g sing to you, woman."

"You can sing to me all day if you like," I laughed giddily, over the moon in my feelings. For years I didn't know how to explain my feelings, it felt weird, and believe me, I fought it. I wasn't always pining over this man like a helpless, poppy love school girl but the minute I figured it out I wasn't going to let go. Even when I tried. Lo and behold he wouldn't let me.

"I love you, Sibel Benjamin. I cannot help it, my heart sings your name," he said sincerely and squeezed my hand.

"I love you Ryon Menture."

"That sounded so good," he mumbled and shake his head. He stared at me for a moment before leaning forward and capturing my lips in a sweet kiss. My eyes fluttered close and so did his.

"So now that you love me... Will you be my lady," he smiled pulling back and I nodded.

"I want to hear it beautiful," he kept his hand under my chin and stroked my cheek lightly. Lots of different thoughts were flowing through my head and most were about him. I wasn't even hungry anymore. Hunger was a thing of the past.

Looking back at Ryon I couldn't help but reach out and kiss him softly, turning red.

"Let's get out of here," he whispered on my lips.

"Let's go," I said and grabbed my purse. Ryon placed his hand on the small of my back and lead us out of the restaurant. He signal the valet and laced our fingers.

"Well if it isn't little Sibel," I heard and spin in the direction of the voice. "Quite a spectacle in there even for you... father of my child," she added and Ryon's grip on my hand tightened.

"Fiona," Ryon greeted and she turned directly in front of me. "All grown up now aren't we," she smiled and I didn't miss the way she smiled like the devil's mistress. I never did a thing to this girl, I don't even think about her except for the fact that she's carrying my man's child.

When exactly did she get the memo? Last I checked only glass bottles does not grow. Now I'm wishing Fiona was a one-night type of deal then I wouldn't have to deal with her.

I smiled as big as I can, "Fiona... fancy meeting you here. I'm not nearly as big as you," I said and leaned into Ryon.