And I was all alone, something I hadn’t been awarded since I arrived at the kingdom. But I quickly realised that I didn’t want the silence. I didn’t need the loneliness that accompanied the silence, especially when I am in a place where almost everyone doesn’t like me. A place where I am struggling to fit in. And then I wondered, what would things be like back home? If I was still back home and Elian hadn't found me, would things have been better for him? For me? Would he still want to marry Lacie? Or was it Lace? Would I have already gone home to visit Maami and Mubarak? An ache suddenly settled in my chest at the thought of my family back home. How were they doing? Does Maami have enough meds to last her some time? Who was I kidding, of course she doesn’t. I was going to send her some

