LISA I can see the urgency in Brian’s eyes, he wants me to be as excited as he is. He wants me to remember what he said. What we decided to do when he comes back from the mission. We said that we would see each other again. Every last piece inside of my heart wants to be with him but I have betrayed him. I have not been honest with him. I am here, not as his air controller but I am here as a doctor, trying to get him discharged. I feel a burst of tears attacking my eyes. This time it is me taking a step away from him. As I leave his hands that once were on my waist, I feel empty. I feel alone and cold. I do not dare let a tear fall down my cheeks as I do not deserve it. It is me that is the traitor here. He is innocent and I do not deserve someone like him. Then I clear my throat while m