Barrett's question caught me off guard. There was nothing I wanted more than to know where I could find her. My wolf urged me to say yes, but I trusted my common sense. I knew that if I had known where to find her, nothing would have stopped me from seeing her all the time.
"No!" I said. "And please never ask me that question again."
Barrett stared at me for a moment, shook his head in disbelief, and then left the room.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, hoping to make my pain easier to bear. Even though I found it better not to see her, I knew there was still something I hadn't resolved. I wanted to address it before they took her away, but I couldn’t. After experiencing the pain of her absence, the thought of losing her forever felt unbearable.
After a while, I tried to focus
