JOSHUA
Good luck ? Good f*****g luck ?
Why the f**k did I just say that ? Now she is going to think I am jealous or something , wait , am I jealous of the waiter asking Lucy out ? Nah , it must be something else , I have been friends with her for years , even if we were apart for some of that time , still we are close and in some ways , it is like I am her big brother , ughhhh , no , gross , not her big brother , but something more than friends , just not romantically involved , it must be just an urge to protect her because I care for her , but that is it , that must be it.
I spent the rest of the night just tossing and turning in bed , I couldn’t sleep at all last night , so today I am exhausted and cranky , it took me a while to stand up from the bed , I feel like I got my ass kicked
