A few days go by and I haven’t spoken to Austin. He agreed to give me some time without disruption of calls or texts. He has fulfilled this promise. Which surprises me. He hasn’t been too good at doing that so far in this relationship. I am not quite sure what I meant by ‘break’. I don’t want to break up with him, but also feel like that is what has to be done. We just aren’t right for each other.
I take the few days to take some time away from everybody and to focus on myself. I spend a full day in the park, just listening to music on my phone and reading a few chapters of my favourite book. I try keep Austin out of my mind, but it does not work that well. It is almost like he has become some sort of disease engraved permanently in my brain, and no matter what I try to cure it, it just
