Bituin: Queen of Aourterde

The Past - V

Anatalia

His hands moved up my waist while he peppered kisses on my skin. His lips were so soft on my pale skin until he sunk his teeth into my flesh. I cried out in both pleasure and pain relishing in the feel of him, he moved upwards closer to my breasts and peppered more kisses and bites. His movements as he went in and out of me not changing. I swayed my hips in rhythm with his, the pressure and pleasure building up.

I cried out louder throwing my head backwards when he bit down on my n****e the sheer pleasure breaking me from the inside, he knew I liked it this rough, the pain building up more pleasure between us. I wrapped my legs tighter around his waist screaming out his name. He brought my head back to face his kissing me desperately, I bit down on his lips hard enough to draw blood and he growled in pleasure. We were almost there, we were almost reaching the heaven only he and I could give to each.

“Ohh my dove” I felt him spill inside of me as he grunted my name. That’s how I liked it; hearing him growl in pleasure because of me. I kissed him slowly as we both began to breath normally again.

He laid us back down on to the bed bringing me closer to him and wrapped his arms around me. ”What’s the count?” He teased.

“Five for the night” I chuckled.

“F*cking hell, only five?” He brought me to sit on top of him. I nodded laughing at him.

“Now you know we have to remedy that don’t you little dove?” he smirked at me slowly pulling me in for a kiss but I pushed him away suddenly feeling like all of my insides coming out. Having nothing close by to hurl into, it all came out onto the floor.

Jonas knelt down beside me pulling my hair away from my face and rubbing my back until I spilled everything out. He lifted me up and sat me down by the window leaving it open for the wind to blow on my face. He brought me a sheet to cover myself with, “It’s going to be okay little dove you just sit here, pull yourself together and I will clean this up okay.” I nodded because I had no energy to protest. What in the great stars just happened? I was embarrassed and shocked.

Tears threatened to spill I tried to sniff them away but Jonas had noticed, he went down onto his knees in front of me. He wiped my tears away, “this is my fault. I pushed your body a bit too much lately. With all that is going on in the castle, the situation with the queen I should not have pushed you so much, it is only natural that your body is exhausted and so it has to get rid of the tension somehow. Do not be ashamed my little dove, I am truly so sor-“

I placed my hand on his lips to stop him, “I kept coming to you Jonas it is not your fault. I needed the distraction from Mahalia’s situation. Nothing will get better until she recovers I need to stay strong in front of her and everyone else but with you, with you I get to put down my walls and be vulnerable. You bring me peace and make me feel so much pleasure.” He smiled making me smile too. He leaned forward kissing my forehead and I caressed his cheek.

“Let me take these away I’ll bring you water and something to eat. Don’t move.” I nodded at his command. He kissed me one last time then gathered the sheets he used to clean and got up to go. I sat silently for a while my mind drifting back to Mahalia. I had not checked up on her after I left her today. My heart broke at the thought of my dear friend and the pain she was going through. I had never known the need to want a child as other women but I knew how desperately she had wanted a babe of her own.

Mahalia was my savior, she had found me between the terrible dark streets of Aouterde when I was a young orphan living off of begging and stealing, she had found me beaten up after getting caught for stealing and brought me into the kingdom as her hand. She was still new in the Kingdom, she had just married the Prince Jedidiah who was soon to be King. She trained me and eventually after many years of training to become the best warrior I became her guard. We weren’t only friends but she was like the elder sister I never had and she was my mother when I needed her to be.

She helped me when I was at my lowest and I shouldn’t be weak and let her down when she was experiencing her lows.

I looked out the window pass the large gates of the castle and out into the woods. The rain was falling a bit heavier now.

“My beloved, I brought you something to eat.” Jason said when he came into the room. I noticed two people running towards the gate, “Jonas, is that not your father?” He came to stand next to me looking out the window. He handed me the water and I drank a few sips.

“Indeed it is, and that, if I’m not mistaken, that is Queen Mahalia.”

“Is he running after her or are they -? I don’t understand what is going on.” Akio slowed down into a walk when Mahalia reached the gates. He had a smile on his face as he watched her, they exchanged a few words and when Akio reached Mahalia she leaped into his arms and hugged him. Jason choked besides me, “My mother should not see this” He said bewildered by their affection.

We watched as Jedidiah appeared and the pair broke off their embrace. Akio walked away then suddenly Jedidiah and Mahalia started kissing. Their kiss was passionate and desperate. They looked like they were about to tear each other’s clothes off.

I laughed and cried at the same time. The joy that I felt spread throughout me was inexplicable. She was back, Mahalia was back to her normal self again. It may be a bit early and she may never fully recover but if we get back even a part of the woman she was before the incident I would be forever grateful to the heavens for it.

I leaned into Jason a smile spread across my face as I watched them through the window.

“I like that we are both standing here by the window watching your king and queen kissing like they are about to tear each other’s clothes off, it’s not creepy at all” Jonas whispered into my ear making me laugh. I turned around to face him cupping his cheeks.

“I can think of something else we could be doing.” I leaned in to kiss him and he merely brushed his lips on mine before pulling back.

“I have to tell you something.” The look on his face worried me, I stepped back a little giving him space to talk. “We are leaving at sunrise. I only got word when I went out just now, I promise you I did not know. Something unexpected came up in the South and we are all needed back there, it is not something I could get out off. I tried but –“ he sighed then kissed my forehead bringing me closer to him. “My beautiful goddess,” his hands came to cup my cheeks, “I wish I could offer you more than just my simple heart. Until my father is satisfied with the work I have to do for him I am not free to have a life of my own but I promise you, once I have freed myself I will come running back to you, I will build castles for you hell I would f*cking kill for you if you ask me to,” my heart raced and I smiled despite myself. “I just ask that you wait for me, will you wait for my little dove?”

I leaned in to kiss him but stopped closest to his lips. I then pushed him onto the chair and climbed on top of him taking him by surprise I held his neck tightly but not too rough in my hand, “Don’t get soft on me now.” I whispered into his ears nibbling at it. He stood up abruptly throwing me on to his shoulder. He then threw me on to the bed and climbed on top of me entrapping me by holding my arms. He looked deep into my soul, “I will wait for you,” I whispered. The smile on his face could have brightened the world, he pecked my lips and pushed my legs apart and managed to brighten my whole being.

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I lifted the bed, there was nothing underneath it. I pulled the chairs apart checked underneath the table, still nothing

What is that horrid stink?

“Mam I brought the cloths” a young girl came into my room with a basin of water and some cloths, for the third time today I had asked someone to come clean my room. I did not understand why the room had such a stink. I was highly frustrated by the matter, were they not cleaning properly..

“Okay I will leave now please,” I felt myself start to tear up by how frustrated I was,” please just make sure you get rid of that smell.” I rushed out of the room before my voice cracked.

“Anata-“ Mahalia called me from across the hall but I couldn’t stop I ran out towards the garden to get some fresh air.

“breath, breath, breath. What the f*CK!” I found it difficult to keep the tears at bay.

“Anatalia” Mahalia appeared behind me. As always she rubbed my back soothingly and embraced me. The gesture broke down my façade and immediately the tears poured down my face.

“Hush now my dear it will all be alright. He will be back for you it’s only been one day.” I pulled back from her embrace.

“This is not about him!” I exclaimed pulling myself from her. She looked at me with a raised eyebrow clearly not believing me.

“O, then what is this about ?”

“Something died in my room and the odor is getting to me. And the servants, non of them are finding it they look at me like I’m crazy. I am not crazy!” I turned my back to hide my face while wiping my tears.

Mahalia stood with her hands folded together looking at me, “three maidens have cleaned your room I’ve checked your room myself and I got nothing, non of us did.” She gripped me by my bicep and pulled me to look at her. Gently she wiped away my tears placing both her palms on my cheeks. “You are emotional about his departure and that is okay. You do not have to hide your emotions from me. Have we not been together for far too long and been through far too much to hide from each other?”

I crashed myself into her arms and held on to her. She rubbed my hair and my back slowly as I sobbed my heart out. We slid towards the bench and sat.

“Have you had anything to eat? The cook said you had not come down for breakfast.”

I shook my head in the negative, “I can’t seem to keep anything down. I think I might be getting a fever I have no appetite and when I eat I just hurl everything out.”

“Hello there,” We both looked up and saw Tala come in, Mahalia invited her to come sit with us.

“Tala, would you be so kind to check if Annatalia has a bug coming? She has been throwing up lately and has no appetite.”

“Oh but I see no reason for concern it’s quite normal for a woman in her condition.” She smiled sweetly at us but I didn’t understand what she meant.

“What do you mean? What condition?” I said getting up to her level.

She looked at me unsure, “I do not understand, do you not know?”

“Do I not know what?” my heart was beating faster but by the look on her face my heart already knew. I dreaded hearing her say those words to me.

When she spoke it was like my whole world slowed down and her words came out painfully slow, hitting every corner of my being.

“That you are with child.”

“Annatalia!?” Mahalia held me before I fell. My head was spinning with the information she had just given me.

“Annatalia?” she kneeled before me lifting my head to look at her, “are you alright. This is such wonderful news why are you crying”

“I-I” I looked away from her but she lifted my face again. “I I I am-m s-sor s-sorry I didn’t mean for this to happen. Mahalia I-I swear I didn’t plan this. I’m sorry, I”

“Stop it!” she shook my shoulders a bit. “Stop apologizing, a babe is always a gift never something to apologize for. I lost my child yes, and it was painful but we lost one child and we gained another.” She wiped my tears with her thumps and smiled.

“You would have loved my child as if he was yours am I right?” I nodded quickly, “and I will love yours exactly the same. So perk up, we have a babe coming!” she screeched pulling me up with her.

She laughed out loud, “oh I need to tell Jed! He needs to start planning for the babe!” She ran back into the castle mumblings things about the child.

“Your child has poured life into her again.” Tala smiled at me her smile faultered when she saw the look on my face, I was scared. “He will be beautiful, I know your fears and you have my word that it will be okay, no matter what happens your child will make you proud.” Tala held my hand before walking away.

I sat back down on the bench. I was going to be a mother, I’ve never thought of being a mother but knowing that I was having a child with Jonas suddenly made me feel differently about becoming a mother.

We had not spoken about children but I knew if Jonas were to find out he would be overjoyed with the news, but, how was I going to tell him?