The Queen & Her Knight

Chapter 20

As he holds you in his arms, he feels your trembling body shaking uncontrollably through your sobbing. You have given yourself completely to him. The moment he wrapped his arms around you everything inside you gave in and every memory about the day comes flooding back to you. You press hard into him and you wish that he'll never leave your side again.

You remember how you prayed that someone will find you or that you could find a way out of that god awful place. You remember how you wished to get out that ropes and every little bit of pain you experienced while trying to do so. You feel him caressing you softly with his hands while holding you tightly against his strong protective chest.

THE KING

He can't control all the emotions he's feeling right now. He can't believe that someone would do something like this to his angel. He feels your tears soaking his shirt and your tiny hands holding him and never wanting to let go. He knows that you're not only in physical pain but also in emotional pain. He wants to know who did this to you and what happened and when it happened. He wants to kill the man or woman responsible for this unforgivable crime.

When he finds out who did this, they will surely never see the light of day again. He struggles to fight through his severe anger to try and give you what you need right now but the anger is very strong. He tries his best to comfort you and he lightly caresses your back and arms but then his hands slip to your wrists and he remembers the picture he saw when he walked into your room.

He feels the dry blood around your wrists and a deep sorrow fills his being. He needs to look after you and he needs to do it now.

"Angel, I'm here now, I'm not going anywhere"

"James…"

This makes him even angrier just hearing your trembling voice and the begging that comes with it. He knows you well enough to know that you're a confident woman and you don't let people walk over you but what he's hearing now is defeat. Someone dared to break his angel's spirit and he'll kill them for that.

"Angel, we need to have a look at your wrists. Can you sit on the chair for me?"

"Uhm…yeah"

You hold his hand not letting go of him for a second and this fuels his anger.

"Good, can you wait for me while I get the first aid kit?"

"No!...I mean…I'll come with you"

He stares at you with worried filled eyes and he knows that they must've left you alone for a long while or tortured you. The thought of someone torturing you makes him want to explode inside but he needs to keep his composure around you even just for a little while. He needs you to feel safe and secure with him and anger is the last emotion you need to see now. He holds you around your waist protecting you with his steady and secure arm. You walk together to the bathroom and get first aid.

He sits you down and opens the first aid kit. He opens an alcohol wipe and starts to slowly clean your wounds on your wrist. With every wipe, his anger gets worse as your raw skin starts to show itself.

"Angel, are you okay?"

LADY WINTERS

You hear him asking if you're okay. There's no right answer to that. You feel angry, confused, and heartbroken. You can't get over the fact that someone took away all the safety that you've ever known for no apparent reason. You know that you won't ever feel safe again. What does it mean to feel safe if you can't walk freely among your own people? How can you act and be normal again?

It helps to have him here with you to make you feel safe and secure but you can't forever depend on him to make you feel better. You have to be able to walk out that door and face the world again but for now and right now, you can't feel safe or okay.

But he wants to know if you're okay.

(No, I'm not okay)

"I'm okay"

"Angel, what did they do to you?"

You try and answer his question but you can't get past his eyes that's clearly filled with anger and deep concern. He wants to kill the person responsible. You open your mouth but all that happens is uncontrollable crying and sobbing. He immediately jumps up and wraps you in his arms and you feel the crying stop after you don't know how long.

This amazing man holding you just stand there patiently and holds you for as long as you need to be held. He doesn't move, he just stands like a strong pillar of hope and you feel his protection radiating over you. He caresses every part of your body and you feel him kissing you ever so often on the top of your head.

You don't know very much about love but if there was a feeling of love, then this is sure very close to it. You pull away from him slowly and his eyes are on fire, not of care or protection but pure deep anger. You're shocked at the eyes that greet you and pull away from him.

"What's wrong?"

THE KING

He tried hard to control all his anger but he can't control it anymore. He needs to punch something or do something to get rid of all this anger that's slowly destroying him on the inside. He felt your body against his for almost an hour of nonstop crying and sobbing and his heart can't handle anymore. He can't stand to see his angel broken like this. Then you ask him what's wrong, he wants to scream and kill someone and throw things around but needs to stay calm for you. His eyes struggle to hide the truth.

"Nothing, angel. Nothing…Are you feeling any better?"

LADY WINTERS

You're almost shocked by his question as you find yourself feeling much better. You look down at your wrists and see the raw flesh from it and then you realize you need some bandages.

"Yes, I'm feeling much better, thank you, sire"

"Sire? Please it's James for you and it will always stay James"

Suddenly you see the hurt and pain in his eyes and you understand now that this must be so hard on him too. You move closer to him and put your hands on this chest and you feel him inhaling sharply, holding his breath.

"James, I'm glad you're here with me"

You lightly touch his lips with yours and you feel his immense need for you. He wants to be close to you and you want to be close to him.