The Please, can you love me? solitary heart.

Chapter 30

As soon as we decided to finish together in front of the special room So Day and I turned to meet each other's eyes to express our feelings towards each other for the last time. and started arguing without flute It was as if the director had ordered the story according to the role he was given.

" I never thought that I would be like this. "

" How ! If I didn't catch it, I'd probably keep hiding it, right? "

" Is it about me? ... And brother? I saw last week that he had been doing business for 2-3 days, but when he came back and asked to be blotchy, what does that mean ?" We started to talk more violently. Pass on emotions as naturally as possible. Then the door to the special room opened. with my parents and the camp's parents preparing rice to stop the battle

“ Wait a minute, son … what happened ?!” It was like my mother's words had no effect. The big boy and I kept slashing each other word for word, and the peak was …

Puff !!

“ Why do you have to be so violent with your little brother, Mei !” The sound of my slender palm slashed the cheek of the grown-up boy with all his might. And I passed on the mood to Day. Suddenly, the big boy in front of me used his big palm to forcefully push my chest. As a result, I collapsed on my feet with my parents swiftly supporting me.

" When I say I don't know and then slapped me in the face again So which way is it? Anyone can do whatever they want to do …” The emotion was full, as well as the emotion I sent to you just a moment ago.

" Wherever you go, go ! It's been the same for many years. Do not meet again Wherever you go, go die ! We're done with this, insatiable bastard !"

" Yes ! Quit, quit, you said it yourself .... From now on, you don't expect to see me again, Mei !" The most peak sentence came out of the mouth of a noble boy. before he raised his hand and rubbed his cheek. then turned and walked away without saying goodbye to the elder who was there … ( Someday we will meet again, my dear …) I said to myself that I saw the big man's back walking. Leaving without looking back As a result, the adults who were with me became suspicious. And I did not speak or answer any questions to you. Unless telling the doctor's orders. that I came up with freshly

" Mom and dad I met a doctor on my way to the bathroom. The doctor said Let's see the symptoms for another 2 days before the hospital can be moved to Bangkok …" I said that, before asking them to ask permission to sit on the balcony outside the special patient's room alone. To keep events in line with the state of mind after a violent quarrel with a lover And unbelievably, everyone understood and accepted my decision without any doubt . Even if it doesn't make much sense But it was the only way I could take care of sick people with peace of mind. without worrying about anyone's feelings Day and I decided to break up . The clear water ran down my cheek again with a tortured feeling. with the things that I don't want to happen the most in my life Even if it was to create a situation for everyone to understand accordingly It wasn't easy to make such a decision. with a love relationship for many years Instead, he compelled him to stand still for a moment. to save one's life to return to normal life again Had it been someone else, I wouldn't have felt so much pain. But here I have to sacrifice good love. to take care of someone who had killed me alive In the end, there was nothing I could do except let it take its course. For my father's former lover Although his own child was also my ex-lover. Am I doing the right thing to make this decision? The more you think, the more tears flow. I lifted the back of my hand to wipe away the tears again and again with regret. There was really no other way.

Finally, it's time to move the camp to continue treatment at Father Nop's hospital. Then it became difficult for me to come up immediately. because of the medical team who treated it They are all friends of Nop's father. If the difference, the person who was fully responsible would not escape me. If it really comes to that time, I believe Father Nop will understand my intentions. After I broke up with Nong Day that day, until now we have never contacted each other in any way. to fulfill the role of the two of us Really broke up Today I want to spend my life in the hospital. Keep looking after the camp for almost 24 hours with willingness. Don't pretend to make up your feelings all the time when you're with it.

" What will the camp bring? You're going to the convenience store. " I asked him too, his face was normal like every day. Without the slightest hint of resentment or resentment. Because I have let go of everything, no anger, no resentment, no negative feelings about it anymore. Today, the conversation between the two of us Just like when I first encountered it at this hospital many years ago. And I didn't forget to tell him the story of Day's breakup. including explaining the reasons in detail not cause any doubt in me

" I don't take it anymore. The fridge that my mother bought is still full .

" Wait a minute. Or something really urgent, ring the nurse's bell. ” As I spoke, I reached out and touched his hand with concern. and walk out to the door of a special room

The camp now looks so different from every moment I've seen it. Being so close to it made me feel at ease. It's not like when I was new to it. or when it pretends to be my girlfriend It's as different as a different person. I walked almost to the front of the convenience store and saw 2 men standing arguing. From the scene in front of me, I thought of Nong Day at the same time. From the controversial conversation between two young men. It's exactly the same pattern I used on Nong Day last week. Until now, I don't know how he is, how he lives, whether he misses me, but if you ask me, it's impossible for me not to miss him. I quickly walked into a convenience store so that my emotions were sinking with the past that it might bite my feelings back to pain again. I went to buy used items. Snacks as needed until they are finished, then quickly walk to pay at the counter. before immediately returning to the patient's room

" What's wrong with you, red eyes? "

" There's nothing like just now. Walking through the car smoke in front of the building, the traffic jam is very long . But unbelievable. More than 10 days that I have been with it almost constantly. He never asked about the relationship he wanted like before. But it's good that it doesn't put pressure on me.

" Oh, " I handed him a piece of candy to eat as always. After I went to the convenience store back And it didn't deny either. Me and him were chatting about nonsense. Until it was time for him to wipe himself to prepare for dinner as the hospital staff would bring him food at five o'clock every day.

" It's time to wipe yourself off. I'll go in and prepare my stuff. " I said as I lifted my watch and looked at it.

" May I go to the bathroom today, Brother Mei? " he asked with a considerate expression on his face.

" Can't take a shower yet. The surgical wound has not yet healed. Or will the wound be torn and then the parents know ? Go back up and sit on the bed, acting like a child.