36. Messed Up Feelings
(Liana)
I turned to look at Asher one last time, my heart feeling strangely heavy with the unsaid words. His back was to me and he stood there, staring at the TV, but somehow I knew he was not actually watching it. He was just avoiding looking at me and it made me feel things I should not probably feel. Not at all. I didn't like feeling like this, like my heart was slowly being grinded into million pieces. Like someone heavy was sitting at the base of my throat and scratching at it with sharp claws. It was an uncomfortable feeling, really, really uncomfortable and I just wanted it to end.
"Asher." I said and I could see his back raising and falling. He didn't turn to look at me, but he asked, "yes?"
"What are we doing to each other?"
"Go, Liana." He said as if
