Chapter 8 ELIJAH POV
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Continuing to stare at Emma with Noah by her side irked me. I mean, who am I to say who goes near her but for f!ck sakes does it have to be my best friend? He's got the charm and nice guy attitude so of course he'll use that to his advantage. He might have not been an ass like Tammy and I to Emma but he was just as much involved, along with Allison. It pissed me off beyond belief that they were with her. What are they trying to prove? I thought those two were a thing.
I decide to grab a beer and down it super fast. Then, I decide to down another. I can't handle the emotions swirling inside of me right now. It's too damn much. I can't understand why I feel like this. Well, I can but I definitely don't like feeling. It's her that's making me feel this way. That damn girl with her gorgeous face, flawlessness, and positive attitude. Not to mention her beautiful smile and gorgeous eyes.....SNAP OUT OF IT YOU MORON!
I sit on the couch watching people leave the party and see that one of those people is Emma. She doesn't notice me but that's good. I can sit here and revel in her innocence and beauty. She captivates me and my thoughts now more than ever. I was the sole reason for her torment by my friends and I but ever since I can remember she has been a magnet to me. Seeing her makes it impossible to breathe but also assures me that I am alive. Her determination to do her best to leave this town is admirable. I sure as hell do not know what I want to do with my life but she does and I can't help but be in awe of her.
I watch as she smiles widely at her brother and talks to him before they both head out. Once she is gone, it feels like a piece of me left too. I finally stand up and head for the backyard to find Allison and Noah. More like Noah. I spot him sitting with Allison just talking and he notices me walking towards them.
"Hey man what's going on? Haven't seen you all night. Great party, right?" Noah casually states. I roll my eyes with his oblivious attitude.
"Of course not because you were too busy out here mingling with Emma to even bother to notice if I were here or not." Noah seems surprised at my wording and narrows his eyes at me.
"Listen man I needed to clear the air with her. We, as in Allison and I, needed to apologize for never stopping the both of you from your constant torment." I try to say something back to him but he just continues on.
"Sh!t we all need to apologize. This sh!t with antagonizing her on the daily is getting f!cking stupid and pathetic. She's literally giving up her weekends offering to help us out. It's about damn time we make amends. You, of all people, have got to admit that we have been nothing but jerks to her and to everyone else that isn't in our little circle, but especially to her for no f!cking reason." His irritation is rolling off him in waves. I agree with him in my mind but don't show it. I just stand there with my arms crossed and blank expression.
"She's a really nice girl when you get to know her. Allison and I actually feel better for apologizing. She f!cking deserved an apology. Next year is our last year and I do not want to leave the school with any regrets. That would have been my number one regret." I don't buy this sudden need to make amends and before I think of what to say my mouth has a mind of its own.
"What chance do you think you got with Emma? I'm not f!cking stupid Noah. I see your hidden agenda. I thought you and Allison were a couple." Allison flinches at my words.
"You can't fool me. Don't act as if you give two sh!ts about Emma's feelings and making amends. What's your f!cking deal?" We are in each others faces and I will myself not to pummel him. Before Noah can say anything Allison chimes in.
"Ok this is my cue to leave. I am going to go home and leave you two to your testosterone filled argument. I actually had fun tonight and I really like Emma so I am indeed happy I apologized to her. You two should not even be fighting about this. We all owe it to her to be different. She did nothing to any of us and all Noah and I could do is stand there idly while you and Tammy felt the need to insult her all the time. For what reason might I ask? I never asked why you behaved like a moron in the first place. You know what? I don't even want to know. I don't want to be involved anymore. Bye guys." We watch as she storms away from us.
Noah turns back to me still sporting an angry face.
"Honestly Elijah, I know I don't have any chance with Emma but for what it's worth, I most certainly will try to at least be a friend. If you didn't have your f!cking head so far up your ass you would see how amazing of a girl she truly is. You are nothing but an egotistical maniacal i***t who thinks mommy and daddy's fortune is going to save him from the world so f!ck everyone else, right?"
"F!ck you Noah!" I say through gritted teeth.
"No Elijah. F!ck you. Time and time again I was an i***t for not standing up to you. I will continue to prove to Emma that I am a different person. Allison and I are sick of your sh!t. By you not even admitting to being a selfish pr!ck, you are denying yourself someone special, might I add." He continues his rant.
"I see how you look at her. You can't fool me. You are just as drawn to her as I am." I am literally frozen to the spot I am in and my fists are balled at my side. My blood is boiling and I am beginning to see red but before I completely lose it I will myself to respond. Everything he is saying is true and I know I am a f!cking moron for acting like this.
"You know nothing of how I feel or how I feel about her!" Noah narrows his eyes at me.
"Really? So you weren't just a jealous asshole because I was talking to her? Even Allison can see right through you! I am going to make it my mission to be her friend because I am sensible enough to realize that she is a good person who I would love to have in my life. I can see her being there for me and I will be there for her. Always."
"How f!cking dare you right now."
"You know what? You're right. You shouldn't even care this much about what I want with Emma anyway. You have Tammy at your disposal. I am not clueless when it comes to you two. You don't deserve Emma at all. She will never be with you when Tammy is always by your side. You tormented her along with Tammy and never did a damn thing to stop it. Emma knows you are involved with her and she will never have Tammys sloppy seconds. You really don't deserve Emma." What the f!ck?!
Clenching my fists until I feel my fingernails seeping into my skin I will myself to calm down. I would love nothing better to punch him in his smug face but he is my friend. MY FRIEND!
"Noah, you are my best friend and we have known each other since birth and I will not allow our friendship to be jeopardized by this. I agree, yes the torment of others and to Emma needs to stop, but when it comes to Emma, her everything will be mine. Damn everything and everyone else."
I leave it like that and walk away without waiting for a response. I make a mental note that I need to be better, become better, for her.
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