Dirty Secret With My Professor

Overreacting and Overthinking

Lana's POV

Cynthia went to her apartment as soon as we pulled up in my driveway. She didn't speak to me for the whole drive home. I couldn't be bothered about it because I have other things to worry about. There was a knock on the door and then as I walked towards the door, it opened and my dad stepped inside. The sun is already setting.

He closed the door behind him and turned around to face me. "Are you okay?" he asked with concern.

"Yes," I said.

"I went to the university, so I'm having a meeting with the board tomorrow. I will do anything to get rid of that son of a b^tch," he said.

"Dad, as long as he stays away from me, then I'm happy," I replied.

"You should've told me sooner," he clenched his jaw.

"He only started recently at the university, but I'm happy that you're here to take care of him," I said.

"It looks like I will be here for another night. I'm sure that you won't mind," he smiled at me.

"No, I don't." I replied as he walked past me with his little suitcase. "I am going to visit a friend of mine this evening. I won't stay out late," I told him.

"Just call me if you need me," he said before he walked towards the guest bedroom.

That was easy. I grabbed a jacket, my phone and car keys and I walked towards the front door. "Dad, I'm leaving!" I called out.

"Be safe!" he called out to me from the bedroom and I left.

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I knocked on Arden's door and the door opened moments after. He was still dressed as he was at university today. He smiled and it made my heart flutter. He moved out of the way and I stepped inside, walking further inside of the lounge as he closed the door behind me.

" I'm glad you're here," he said, as I turned to face him.

" I'm happy to be here," I smiled, and I placed my phone and keys on the coffee table. "My dad is staying for another night." I said as I took a seat on the sofa.

"Is everything okay?" he asked with concern as he took a seat next to me. "I mean after Brady today."

"I asked my dad to do something about it. He will have a meeting with the board tomorrow to get rid of him." I said. I looked at him.

"That's great news, let's hope things work out," he smiled at me. That smile makes me want him.

"I didn't tell him about exactly what happened at the club," I shrugged.

"Let's focus on the matter at hand when your father does something about it," he said as he placed his hand on my thigh. I moved closer to him and I leaned forward, pressing my lips against his. Closing my eyes, we deepened the kiss and his hand cupped the side of my face. I moved my hands to his chest. My tongue enters his mouth as it parts, and our tongues dance.

The kiss was more passionate now and I moved further towards him. "Stop," he said, breaking the kiss, catching his breath with his forehead pressed against mine as I caught my breath too. He pulled inches away, still cupping the side of my face. " I want you to be sure," he said.

"I want it now," I pleaded.

"No, Lana. I want you to be ready. After what has happened recently, I think we should wait," he said.

"No, I don't want to" I said. "Do not think that you can make these decisions for me."

"As much as I want to have s^x with you now. I will wait and be patient until you are really ready. I want to be a gentleman to you. So let us wait for the right time." he looked at me to accept it.

I moved away from him because now that I'm ready to give myself to him, he doesn't want it. He cannot make these decisions for me and I don't want him to be a gentleman to me now. I want the Arden that wanted me when he made the deal with me. "You don't want me," I said, and it stinged my heart. This shouldn't have affected me but it was.

"I do want you, more than you will ever know. This isn't the right time," he said.

I stood up from the sofa and I took my things and I walked towards the door. "See you tomorrow, professor," I called out to him.

"Lana, where are you going?" he called out to me.

" I'm going home to spend some time with my father," I said with anger as I opened the door and walked down the hall towards the elevator.

Arden didn't come after me and he didn't say anything. Maybe I just made it worse and maybe I was overreacting and by doing that, pushed him away to not come after me.

What did I expect? The deal was only to have a s^xual relationship and maybe there wouldn't be. I am so angry right now, that I'm basically overthinking. Perhaps he doesn't have time for a young woman's moods.

The fact is that he refused it. I feel like a damn fool. Anger is boiling inside of me and I feel like I would explode at any minute and at anything. I walked to my car and I stood there.

I take in a deep breath and let it out as I try to calm down and have a clear mind to think straight. I will not talk to him anymore because I am a fool. He doesn't want me, so what happens to my grades now?

My dad will be pissed off with me for failing. I'm a failure and I will be in his eyes, but nothing compares to what I'm feeling right now towards Arden. I let my feelings get in the way when he clearly stated that there was nothing more to it, but why did it feel different when he actually cared about me, and as if he was mine?