Lavender

Chapter 3 - Revealed

LAVENDER'S POV

I HATE myself. Jada, my best friend, is one of the females I'm attracted to. I really find her beautiful even though we are so different. Different from the way our body moves. Different from the choices of our clothes. Different from the way we interact with others. She's popular while I'm not. Jada is so sexy while I'm still skinny. She's confident while I'm always shy, even to go out. She's the type of woman who guys will go crazy while me?

I'm a fucking bisexual who's attracted to her best friend. "Damn it!"

"What?" Jada suddenly said that made me come back to my senses while she looked at me with confusion. "Are you okay, Lavender?"

I shook my head before flashing a smile to her. "Nah, I'm okay. Just..." I stared at her whole body as Jada confidently turned around, letting me see her entire cheering uniform.

After watching our school basketball team's first game, Jada decided to cheer. She said that she would be participating and would go to every game of our school basketball team. It was suddenly a decision that made me shocked at first, but Jada is Jada. She gets what she wants, so after the first game, Jada drags me to a mall to find a proper cheering uniform that she said but, as I look at her right now. I can't believe how I am seeing my best friend's sexiness for the first time.

"Maybe this is too much. Your uniform is way too revealing than our cheering squad's uniform."

Jada instantly hit me on my shoulders with her hand as she looked at me with annoyance written on her face. "You're such a spoilsport. Did you forget I'm doing this for our school team?"

I shake my head in disbelief while watching my best friend take out a small mirror and check her makeup. "You did tell me, but that's why we also have the cheering squad, Jada. They do the cheering while you do the watching to support our school's team."

"But still, to support our team, I must also cheer. So why wouldn't I?" Jada said, which made me chuckle.

"Why do you always have the answer to make me lose?" I asked while watching her flip her long ombre-colored, wavy hair.

"It's because I'm your dear best friend, okay?" Jada answered that made me rolled eyes while smiling. "Now..."

My mood instantly changed as I swallowed. Jada is now looking at me like I have something on my face. And her stares quickly made me freaking nervous.

This is it.

The moment where I'm going to say my secret to Jada.

Feeling anxious, I lick my lower lip before biting it. Jada's brows instantly raised after seeing my mannerism, which I knew she knew why I did it.

"Okay, it looks like you're going to tell me something important and that we should discuss it privately." She looked around the hallway, seeing the other famous students talking and passing by before looking at me again. "And this hallway is not the best place for it, so..." Jada grabbed my hands that made me flustered.

"Wh-where are we going?" I asked, feeling light-headed as she dragged me up to the stairs.

"Somewhere quiet. The rooftop, where else?" Jada answered while she continued to drag me up.

Oh my god. If only my best friend were not my best friend right now, I would definitely date her. I mean, she's so beautiful and lovely. Her kindness makes me want to hug her. Jada being thoughtful for me, not wanting everyone to overhear what I'm going to tell her, is one thing that I liked about her. She's so thoughtful I don't even want to let her go, even if she ended up hating me because of lying towards her for months.

I shook my head and blew a loud breath. I felt stupid and ashamed for liking my best friend on another level. And I don't even want to know her reaction once she ends up knowing my thoughts for her. I don't even know if she will be disgusted or angry. And I wish that she's not going to hate me as I really don't want to lose her, my childhood best friend and the only woman with who I've become close.

Jada and I were both panting as we reached the rooftop of our school. I hold onto my knees as I continue to breathe heavily.

"Damn you, Jada. Why do you always need to drag me? Oh, my god!" I gasped for the last time before standing up straight.

I heard Jada chuckle, making my head turn on her. "What's funny, huh? Is it fun trying to kill me?" Jada answered me with a laugh, making me roll my eyes at her.

"Oh, come on. Dragging you isn't that bad. You've got to work on your cardio," Jada said, which made me slightly irritated.

"Oh, you're telling me I need to work on my cardio while I'm this..." I gestured my whole body that made her laugh. "While I'm this skinny, not fat!"

"Still, Lavender. You aren't always going out. You don't even go out of your room to see a bit of sunlight," Jada said as she fixed her herself and placed one of her hands to her waist. "You're looking pale, Lavender."

Maybe because of my nervousness eating me up as I waited for Jada to ask me what I needed to say. Shit! How am I even going to start to tell her everything? I already feel nervous just by the way she looks at me, like she's examining every corner of my body.

"Lavender," she said, calling my name as if I'd spaced out.

Okay. This is it. The moment I'm going to come out, only to Jada. And there's no turning back, but I've got to be honest to Jada. She's my best friend, and I'm not supposed to be keeping secrets from her. I've been lying to her for months, so I need to tell her the truth right now. And no matter what happens, I need to accept Jada's reaction. Even if it means ending our friendship.

"Jada..." I breathe one last time before telling her my secret. "I'm a bisexual."