Lavender

Chapter 24 - Beauty

LAVENDER'S POV

I blow a low breath as I feel my heart pounding inside my chest. Goddamn it, I'm nervous but here goes nothing. 

"I-issy, please, don't be mad at for what I'm going to reveal on you, okay? I-it's not that I wanted it to happen but I will understand if ever you are going to be mad, what I did is really inappropriate, I know," I said, sighing as Daisy looks at me scrutinizingly. 

"Then what is it that happens? I can see that you did not want it to happen for looking this upset but tell me now, Lavender. Don't leave me hanging," she said, gone the cheery light aura surrounding Daisy. 

"Okay, okay. Here goes..." I muttered below me breathe before I started to talk. "Your brother came home, it was almost dawn that time when he came home. I was actually waiting for him, sacrificing my sleep so that I can talk to him about you and your sibling relationship since I told you that I wanted to help the both of you."

Daisy nods her head, curiosity written in her face as she looks at me with her raised eyebrow. "Okay, but I hope you're not telling him what I really feel, okay? He better finds it out himself," she said that I instantly answered by nodding my head non-stop. 

"Of course, Issy. I understand you but telling him what you feel is not part of my plan, Daisy. I'm actually on your side," I said that I'm happy made her smile. "My plan is to get Damon to have a vacation where you and Damon can actually spend time together. I bet you and Damon haven't really got out since Damon became busy with his job as Chief Executive Officer of your Dad's company, right? Ellington Enterprises is such a huge company."

Daisy nodded with what I said. "Yeah, that's why sometimes, it came across to my mind that I should give him a break. That may be, he was just pushed because Uncle Earl is a cold-hearted man, Lavender. I never heard Uncle Earl having a family and that he was just living alone in Portland so..."

Daisy shrugs, making me sigh. Well, Daisy can't really blame their Uncle Earl that much because their Uncle Earl is not around anymore. It's Damon's choice to always be cold and distant. To not care about Daisy's feelings, locking her up in their mansion, and not allowing her to go out, it's all Damon's decision. 

"This is why I wanted to talk do Damon, Issy. Because I wanted him to realize what he's been acting towards you. Of how he treats you like you are not his sister," I said, feeling bad for Daisy. 

"But what really happened, Lavender? Why is my brother involved in what you're thinking that I'm going to be mad? Did you punch him?" she said that instantly widen my eyes, shaking my head constantly. 

"No, no!" I said, chuckling nervously. 

I mean, because of what Damon did to me, I'm really tempted to punch him just like what Daisy guess but I'm not violent. I mean, I'm usually composed whenever I encounter an uncomfortable situation but what happened to Damon and me last night is different. 

"Then what the heck happened, Lavender?" Daisy said, looking impatient that made me chuckle. 

"Calm down now, Daisy. What actually happened is..." I stopped as my heart instantly beat crazily, feeling embarrassed. "

Oh, my God! Can I really disclose what happened between Damon and me? But it's really embarrassing! What if Daisy already knows and that she started looking at me as someone who's a w***e after his brother? A person who's not genuine with her and that I'm just a fake friend and I don't think I want her to think of me that way. 

But I need to be honest. I want to get Daisy's side so I must be honest with her. I need to. 

"Okay. What actually happened is that..." I blow a low breath before looking at Daisy, letting her see my sincerity. "While I'm waiting for him, I remembered the library I saw and asked to you, Issy. You know, I loved books so much so last night, I entered the library. I stayed there, roaming and reading but what shocked me is Damon going home earlier. You remember that we talked about me wanting to talk to Damon, right? I wanted to talk to him because I want him to start easing off with you and talk to you even just small talks is enough."

Daisy sighed loudly that made me look at her. "What..."

Daisy gave me a deadpan look before talking. "But what in the God's really happened, Lavender? Spill the bean already!" she snapped that made me jumped a bit before gathering my courage to say what really happened between her brother and me.

"We kissed, okay! He initiated, I answered him, we kissed!" I said with my eyes closed. 

Seconds passed, I didn't hear any words coming from Daisy. Everything is just quiet so I opened my closed eyes, only to be confused about what is Daisy is thinking as she looks at me while she's covering her mouth using both of her hands. 

"Uh, what are you doing?"I asked, looking at her as I watch her looking like holding back something until she suddenly screams. 

A scream so loud I had to cover both of my ears. "Hey, hey! What the hell is happening to you? Are you okay?" I said before taking both of my hands off my ear and look at her, feeling concerned that something is not right with her. 

Daisy fan herself using both of her hands, both of her cheeks are red as her eyes are becoming teary. Damn it! Maybe I should not have said what happened between her brother and me. 

"Hey! Answer me! Are you okay?!" I said slightly loud, as I held her left shoulder and shook it weakly. 

Daisy giggled while her cheeks are still red. Okay? She giggles so she's okay but what's with the scream though?

"Of course, I'm f*****g fine, Lavender!" She said, looking happy before putting both of her hands on my shoulder and hold it. "I'm just happy. Damon f*****g kissed you! Oh, my God!" she said, making me lower my shoulder and give her a deadpan look.

"Seriously? You're happy because your brother and I kissed? It's okay with you? I thought you hated your past caregivers because they like your brother and that they don't care about but only your brother?" I said that made her lose her smile before pouting. 

Damn it, Lavender. Why am I such a spoilsport? Seeing Daisy smile seconds ago is such a wonderful sight but I ruined it. I f*****g ruined it even though she's looking cute pouting now while she crosses both of her arms to her chest. 

"Then, are you just like them? Do you only care about my brother?" she asked, her face looking sulky. 

"Hell, no, Issy. I care about you and your brother, okay?" I said that she answered with a scream again, looking happy as if she just had a victory.

"Okay, you are weird. Are you sure you are okay?" I said to her that she answered with a nod, making me raise an eyebrow. "Then why the heck are you screaming?" 

Daisy giggled again after hearing my question. "Well, I'm not dumb and innocent, Lavender. I know you," she said that made me confused. 

"Know me, how, and in what way you know me? We only just met a week ago, right? I mean, yes, we both wanted to be friends with each other but I thought it's just our first time meeting each other? I admit that Damon was someone I know back in our high school but I never really know  you as Damon's sister, Daisy?" I said but she just chuckled while shaking her head on me. 

"That's the thing, Lavender. I already know you. Since you and Damon are both still in junior high school. He always talks about you, until he becomes mute since everything that happened," she said, sarcasm thick in her voice as she rolls her eyes because of her brother. 

But what the heck? She knows me since high school and that Damon is talking about me? What the hell?

"So it means---"

"It means I know the history of the two of you. Of how he met you and how he fell in love with you. Anything to tell about you. You love books and that you spend most of your time in the library," she said that made me rolled my eyes this time. 

"Come on, Daisy. Don't start now. What happened back then is nothing. Damon's feelings are just like those they called puppy love, Issy. And our world is not like each other. You have a rich family and I'm just a simple person, a commoner," I said that made Daisy looked at me with her widening eyes. 

"Why are you thinking that way, Lavender? All people in the world are the same. You don't have to differentiate our places, Lavender. And you are not just a simple person, Lavender. My brother may have been a pain in the ass in Mom or Dad, Damon is someone who can see the beauty of things,  of people. And he fell in love with you, Lavender," she said that made me close shut my eyes. 

"No, no, no, Issy. It can't be. Damon can't notice me. Damon can't fell in love with me, it can't be."

"Oh, shut the f**k up, Lavender. Don't deny what's in front of you. Even if you two have not been in contact with each other for the past years, I never heard Damon blaming you, hating you for rejecting and humiliating him," she said, making me brush my palm to my face. 

"So you're really okay with what happened to the both of us? The kiss? You don't hate me?" I asked before looking at her. "Are you not angry?" 

A smile curved on Daisy's lips, making my heart stilled. Oh, s**t! Daisy really has the power to take my breath away though I'm not complaining. I feel confident as I don't plan on telling her that I'm bisexual—someone who has a crush on her and that I'm starting to have feelings for her. 

"Of course, I am! I'm not sorry about what my brother did to you, Lavender. Sorry about that. But I'm happy, really grateful that you came, Lavender. It's not just your help that can make me and my brother happy again, it's just you. You for Damon."

Oh, f**k. 

DAMON'S POV

I really don't know what I should do to make Lavender not pissed at me anymore. She's stubborn to stay mad at me but her reason is valid. I have been insensitive and I kissed her. I f*****g kissed her which I should not have done but hell I did.

And I'm supposed to be feeling sorry but no. I don't have or feel any regrets about kissing her. I know that it was wrong to kiss her but I admit that I like the feeling of her lips touching mine. Even if I'm drunk, I'm still sober enough to remember the feeling of her soft lips to mine.

I know that I decided not to make what happened to the past a big deal, but what happened last night made me realize how I should not address Lavender just as a caregiver because Lavender was never just a caregiver. She's more than just a caregiver. A girl that I have met is now grown up a fine and beautiful woman.

God, Lavender. Why do you have to come back? Now I'm f****d.

I sighed as I sip a portion of my scotch on the rocks here on the counter. I'm currently in a bar I own here in Sunny Isles Beach, trying to figure out what I should do to make Lavender not mad at me anymore.

Loud banging of music and party people continue to make the place wild.