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Chapter 6: Stoic

                                                         "I guess my best wasn't good enough"

ELAINE POV

"Elaine this is getting serious" I lowered my head to avoid an eye contact with my doctor because he might see the emotions that lurking inside me that could trigger my heart disease. Sometimes I ask myself on why I have these differences that separates me to the general public

"Elaine? Are you listening?" I nod my head and still lowering my head

"Look at me" I slowly look him and he raised his eyebrows

"I see, does your father know this one?" I shrugged my head and he just sigh then grab a donut. His favorite snack

"You know Elaine, you're getting close of  controlling your emotions but what your doing is an abused!" I fake smile and look at my right trying to remain subtle

"I thought everything is under control" I can see that he is controlling his anger and I'm pretty much aware that he is saying something that is logical

"Anyways, are you taking your meds?" I nod my head and he handed me a donut

"So for now stay at home and be alright. Okay?" I guess there are things that will never change and I'm feeling sad for Franco and Lucio. Dad may get angry to them but I know they will not lose their job, I'll just explain to my father when I see him later

'grrrllll' that is the sound of my stomach.. sorry

"I guess I'm hungry" I tried to look around and it's already 7pm. My usual time of walk is night and you already know it guys. Hehe

"El Laine" I laugh a little when I read the name of an luxury restaurant. I guess my dad made this in reality. This is the name of my doll who got stollen by a beggar near the restaurant. For me it's just okay because it's just a toy but what hurts me the most is seeing his intentions.

-- fast forward

"Dad!! El Laine is getting prettier everyday!"  I raised my doll and put it in front of my father and my brother was just smiling

"Just like you!" He pinched me into my nose and patted my head when someone grab my doll and ran. I was shocked and I couldn't move then my brother jolted to catch the child as I am whimpering with my dad hugging me

"Hushh it's okay.. your brother will get it back" my dad said while kissing my forehead just to make me calm

I saw my brother stop and he talk to the kid who stole my doll. The kid was crying and a girl who was at the same age of me suddenly kneel and apologize

There my brother stop them from doing such and offer a hand for help. After a few minutes he patted the head of the two kids and turn around then walk towards us smiling while the two kids behind was crying so bad then the other kid hug her brother.

My father also smiled and my brother sat as he lowered himself into me so that we could be at the same height the said

"There are things in this world which we own that others doesn't have. Let's learn to understand people and just move on" I feel bizarre hearing those words from him that who is so silent and focus with his studies. He has a lot of hopes and dreams that surely encourages him to grow even stronger in life

"What happened?" My dad asked and my brother look at my dad

"The child is dying and her last wish is to have a doll. I know it's a bad thing to steal but it's not bad to give right? Let's go?" I wipe my tears and hug my brother, he just smiled and carry me into his back

-- end of flashback

Maybe I will just eat dinner at home. Besides I forgot my money and I'll just call my driver if I wanted to go home. And I can also walk it's not too far but it's exhausting. Hehe

I decided to go to the sea near our area. It's quite peaceful and calm a perfect place to stretch my tendons and shout but I don't think it's a good idea to shout and let my emotions burst because I might faint here and ghost will devour my body!

Cut the crap.

8:30pm

I look at my watch and feel the cold breeze of the sea as it welcomes me. This is so relaxing how I wish that life will always be like the sea. Its vast and wide but there are always life even how deep it is and the hope for survival.

"Elaine?" I froze when I heard his voice. I cant be wrong this is White!

Exhale

Inhale

Exhale

Inhale

Okay I'm feeling okay! I'm not nervous! Where just friends..

"Oh white?" As what the doctor said I turn back my old self which was stoic and emotionless. I tried to changed but I guess my best wasn't good enough and this is my destiny. Also there is no such thing as a change that could happen overnight. It takes adjustments and getting yourself ready

"It's late" White seems nervous as he speak to me. Do I look hideos? I scan my body and yeah I look hideos, I'm just wearing a simple dress and it's colored white. It's like dress to kill

"Okay b--ye" What am I trembling? I need to calm and remain relaxed. I can't collapsed here! Dad will surely get furious and I can never get out.. I can do this!! Darn you White!

Here I pass you!

Please don't call me!

Don't talk to me!!

Don't grab my h--

"Uhmm" He grab my hand -_-

I stop but I didn't look at him. My face is red and I don't know why! For sure it's not love because I'm not feeling weird.. Were friends!

"Nothing.. Good Night" I just nod my head and walk as fast as I could then I realize one thing

He's telling me Good Night?

I haven't eaten my dinner yet!

'grroowwlll"

As I look again the sea I felt peace and I don't know why but White is one of it.

Thank you

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