Hell, All Over Again

Four – The Beginning

            “ROSE ANN…I’m a gentleman, but right now, I don’t think I can stop myself.” Jamin swallowed hard, as if that would help him calm himself.

            Rose Ann understood perfectly what Jamin was trying to say, because right now, all she wanted to do is be one with him. This heat that’s burning her, its clouding even her most sane mind. Yes, she’s as nervous as a heck but, the thing that’s burning her inside wouldn’t let her think carefully. She wants him so bad!

            Jamin knew something’s wrong. He’s not stupid to jump in this situation that he’s not sure of but…his body was saying otherwise. His lust had overtaken his reasons. All he wanted to do is bury himself inside her. That’s what matters to him, that’s all he wants, and he wants it now!

            Jamin grabbed Rose Ann’s neck and aggressively kissed her lips. Rose Ann was scared but she did not flinch. He kissed like a lost soul, as if he’s searching for her. And she just accepted the kiss, not sure how to respond.

            Marahas na humawak ang palad ni Jamin sa dibdib ni Rose Ann, naroon ang panggigigil. Lango na si Jamin sa drogang itinurok sa kanya, alam niyang iyon ang dahilan ng lahat ng ipinagkakaganito niya pero hindi niya kayang pigilan ang sarili. Pakiramdam niya ay mamamatay siya kapag hindi niya nairaos ang init na tumutupok sa kanyang katawan.

            Rose Ann knew something was wrong, but she couldn’t tell what. Ano ang ginagawa ni Jamin dito? Bakit nasa harap niya ito ngayon at nasa ganitong sitwasyon? May nanuot na ideya sa kanyang isip at kahit alam niya kung ano iyon, hindi naman niya mapigilan ang init na gustong sumabog sa kaibuturan niya. Binabalaan siya ng isip subalit ayaw magpapigil ng katawan niya.

            Naramdaman ni Jamin ang pagkapit ni Rose Ann sa kanyang balikat nang buhatin niya ito at dalhin sa kama. Tumutulo ang tubig sa kanilang katawan ngunit hindi nila pansin iyon. Inilapag niya si Rose Ann sa malambot at malaking kama. Hindi na siya nagsayang pa ng oras at hinawakan niya ang magkabila nitong hita, ibinuka at naghandang bumulusok papasok dito.

            Biglang sinaniban ng takot si Rose Ann. Mabilis niyang iniangat ang mga balikat at kumilos ang mga kamay para itulak sa dibdib ng lalaki. Nagkatinginan sila, nasa mukha ni Jamin ang pagtataka, at takot naman ang sa kanya.

            Tumiim ang mga titig ni Jamin, nagtataka sa ikinikilos ni Rose Ann. Subalit wala na siyang pagtitimpi na natitira para makipagtalo pa, gusto na niyang sumabog sa sobrang init.

            Parang napaso si Rose Ann nang maramdamn ang sobrang init ng balat ni Jamin. Nahawa siya kaya naman unti-unting niyang pinakawalan ang pagkapit sa braso nito. Tinalo ng init ang kanyang takot.

            Jamin felt her loosen up on his arm and took that as cue to go on. Before she could even protest again, he quickly thrust into her, right on the spot, so deep into her. Rose Ann let out a yelp. Her eyes were wide in pain. Tears started forming in her eyes. Her nails buried into his arms.

            He knew he had to stop but he couldn’t. He arched his torso, only to thrust again, and again…and again as if he’s in a road race trying to win.

            Rose Ann started feeling differently. The pain was diminishing. She was now feeling a sweet sensation being circulated inside her. She is liked what she was feeling. Napahigpit ang kampit niya sa mga braso ni Jamin, waring ipinaparamdam dito na gusto na niya ang ginagawa nito.

            Jamin understood completely what her actions were telling him. Pinakawalan na niya ang pagpipigil at marahas na kumilos mula sa ibabaw nito, pabilis nang pabilis para abutin ang kaligayahang nais marating.

            “Oh Jamin…” Rose Ann moaned. Kumapit ang mga kamay niya sa balikat nito para gawing suporta sa ginagawa niyang pagsalubong sa bawat pag-ulos nito sa kanya. “Oh god…oh please…” paulit-ulit na daing niya sa nababaliw na wisyo.

            Lalo namang nag-init si Jamin. May gusto pa s’yang gawin subalit sa abnormal na pag-iinit ng kanyang katawan, mas gusto na lang niyang sumabog sa ngayon. Kaya naman mas binilisan pa niya ang pag-ulos, gigil na gigil siya sa nais na ilabas na pakiramdam.

            “Ah!” Rose Ann breathed out while arching her torso.

            Jamin knew she met her end, and so he also let his out, forgetting to do it outside her since it felt so good to release the heat that’s been killing him. Hinihingal na sumandal siya sa balikat ni Rose Ann, na taas baba rin ang dibdib sa pagbawi ng hininga.

            Sa pagtapos ng pag-iisang katawan nila, saka rin unti-unting humapo ang init ng kanilang mga katawan. Saka rin nanumbalik ang katinuan ng kanilang mga utak. Saka rin nila napagtanto ang mali sa kanilang sitwasyon.

            Naramdaman ni Rose Ann ang pamamaga ng kanyang pribado nang bumangon si Jamin mula sa kanya. Mabilis niyang tinakpan ang sarili, biglang nakaramdam ng hiya. Ibinalot niya ang puting kumot sa katawan.

            Napansin ni Jamin ang pulang bahid ng dugo sa puting kumot na nakatakip kay Rose Ann. Natigilan siya. Diyata’t siya ang naka-una rito? Tiningnan niya ito.

Bigla namang nag-iwas ng tingin si Rose Ann, kabadong-kabado. Ngayong tapos na ang delubyong nagpatupok sa kanila kanina, hindi na niya alam ang gagawin pa. Bumalik ang katanungang kanina ay naitanong din niya sa sarili.

Subalit bago pa iyon mangyari, biglang bumukas ang pinto ng silid. Ni hindi agad natakpan ni Jamin ang katawan nang basta na lamang may pumasok doon at sunod-sunod ang flash ng mga camera sa kanila.

Saka lamang nakuhang takpan ni Jamin ang sarili nang mapagtantong mga reporters iyon. Nakisali siya sa kumot na gamit ni Rose Ann at pareho na sila ngayong nakatakip sa iisang kumot.

“Goddamnit!” Nanggagalaiting bulong ni Jamin sa sarili.

While Rose Ann was still in shock, hindi niya maintindihan kung bakit may reporters sa silid, at paano nakapasok ang mga ito sa isang VIP room na hindi basta-basta napapasok? Ano ba ang nangyayari?

“Mr. Alejandro! Is it true? You and Ms. Romero are getting married? When? How long you’ve been dating?” Mabilis na tanong ng isang lalaking reporter, no—more like paparazzi. Tila ba busog na busog ito sa scoop na nakikita ngayon.

At bakit hindi? Jamin Alejandro and Rose Ann Romero are two of the most respectable and important people in the social world. This scoop will surely sweep the entire gossip and business world.

“Ms. Romero! Ito ba ang sinsabi ninyong honeymoon muna bago ang kasal? Si Mr. Alejandro ba ang tinutukoy ninyong love of your life? How sweet and romantic. Finally, naging kayo rin. Ano pong masasabi ninyo? Gaano po kayo kasaya ngayon?” Sunod agad ng isang babaeng may hawak na recorder.

Rose Ann knew for sure that this was a set up. And knew who was behind all these. Nag-aalalang napatingin siya kay Jamin. And Jamin was just giving his stoic reaction.

Jamin recollected himself after a few moments of thinking. May hinuha na siya kung ano ang nangyayari. These paparazzi were paid to come here. This was a planned-out meeting, and those men who dragged and drugged him in here. It was all a set up. He hardened his face. He calmed his mind. He was always good at it, and still does.

Nagulat si Rose Ann nang lapitan siya ni Jamin at kinabig sa katawan. Hinawakan nito ang kanyang mukha, bago dinampian ng halik sa labi. Maikli lang iyon, pagkatapos ay niyakap siya nito. Matapos pakawalan, muli siyang siniil ng halik, ngayon ay may malalim at madiin. Hindi alam ni Rose Ann kung ano ang iisipin.

Jamin could crush this woman’s lips bit he held himself. This is not the proper place to play the game with her. She sure is her father’s daughter, both sneaky and manipulative. He’ll give the game they wanted. He’ll play with them.

“Yes, we advanced our honeymoon before the marriage since I couldn’t hold it in anymore. Having a woman like her by my side, it’ll drive me crazy not doing anything since she’s the woman I love.” Madiin na sabi ni Jamin lalo na sa huling salita sa mga paparazzi. Pagkuwa’y kinabig pa niya ang babae sa kanyang tabi.

Rose Ann couldn’t believe what she was hearing. She couldn’t react and she just wanted to hide. But having Jamin’s big hands on her skin, pulling her closer to his, she felt safer with him. She looked up at him, wandering around his face…could she finally love the man she’s been dreaming of for a long time?

She watched as he smiled at the reporters. The usual him whenever she sees him in the magazines. The smile that captures every woman and swoon to his charm. And to the men that envy him for his success at such a young age. He is that Jamin Alejandro that everyone knows. Rose Ann smiled…kung makakasal man siya sa lalaking ito, buong puso niyang tatanggapin.

Bung luwang na ngumiti si Rose Ann sa mga reporters. At buong kasiyahang yumakap na rin siya sa katawan ni Jamin. Kagagawan man ng kanyang ama-amahan ang sitwasyong ito, pabor na pabor naman siya. Ito ang iisang bagay na buong puso niyang tatanggapin. Baka nga pasalamatan pa nga niya ang matanda.

Jamin took a glance on Rose Ann’s arms that embraced him…he tightened his jaw. There’s an inferno boiling inside him. But today…just today, he’ll keep it tamed for now.