Chapter Seventy-Eight. Pamela.
I am so exhausted, and I know I have done to much, but this conversation with my mother needs to happen, and now, before I lose my courage and give in to the guilt I feel about going against her.
I understand how hurt she was by Alan and my father, how she as an inability to fully trust any man. But still, this has got to stop. Am I saying that Smithy is going to be my boyfriend? No, definitely not, that would be stupidity on my part after just a few days of texting and one, kind of date, if that is what you can call today. But still, it is my choice to be friends with whomever I choose, not my mothers. She needs to let go. However, I also have to take some of the blame. Unlike Alan, who stood up to her years ago, I let things slide, not wanting to upset t
