Chapter 5 Dagger
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Chapter 5
Once the anger faded and reality hit me right in the balls, I felt sick to my stomach. I wanted to deny it all, but there was no denying I really was the biggest cu.nt on the planet.
Gabe and Mike were furious at me, I dont blame them. I had been a di.ck to Luci since her and Gabe got together. I never gave her a chance because I hated her father for helping Grace out when I had wanted her to pay over and over again.
I had hated Grace for so long now. I knew a big part of my hatred was because I still loved her even after her betrayal with my best friend.
My actions had split the club in two. After I beat the ever living sh.it out of my vice president Axe, about a third of the club left with him and his old lady and started their own club a town over. Including 2 of the guys who had helped me give Grace a beating.
I hated them for going along with it and not calling me on my bullsh.it. Baloo had said straight off the bat that he wouldn’t be a part of any of it.
Club rules were always women and children were untouchable unless in extreme circumstances. I was just glad that my mom never found out about it, or she would have kicked my a.ss and disowned me. We told her Grace had run off, not able to handle the club life, but I knew deep down she never believed it.
I refused to let anyone mention her name, so it was never talked about again. On her deathbed, she had asked about Grace, and I felt like a prize pr.ick, having to shut that conversation down.
Now I was sitting here thinking about all the bad choices I had made since the day I was given that fu.cking photograph.
I never stepped out on Grace from the moment she agreed to be with me. I didn’t follow the bullsh.it my father said about it being fine to use the club who.res. It was just blowing off some steam.
I remember how much it hurt my mom when she caught him with another woman. I knew she only stayed with him for me, and eventually, she became numb to it all. I didn’t want my kids to see their mom like that because of my actions.
When I saw her betrayal, I lost all sense whatsoever. I wanted her to hurt as much as I did, and I couldn’t stand to look at her. I knew making her leave the boys would hurt more than the beating did, and the pain would last longer.
Now, I know it was all a lie, Red had manipulated me in the hopes she could go from club who.re to the presidents old lady. I would never be with anyone other than Grace, though, and eventually, she realised that and left the club.
I just wished she had stayed so she could have the punishment she deserved for her fu.ckery. Right now, we needed to find Luci, and then I would work out a way to find Grace and try and win her back. Not that that was going to happen.
Grace probably still hates me, and I may have killed our child before I even knew he or she existed. I would kill someone for hurting my child, and Grace was always a protective mother bear, I was surprised she never tried to come back and take the boys, unless the child lived so she stayed away to protect it. Fu.ck, I hope it is still alive.
I have already been in touch with Digit, so he can do his computer voodoo sh.it and keep track of Luci when I find out she has been whisked away in a fu.cking helicopter of all things. How the fu.ck they organised that sh.it so fast I have no clue.
I am glad Digit is on the case, though. We will find her soon enough. No matter what Mike says, Digit knows his sh.it. There is no way the bloody sheriffs daughter is able to do all that illegal sh.it as well as him. It will be fine, and then Gabe will forgive me.
I will apologise to Luci and explain that Gabe had no fault in it. Then, I will work on making things right so I can be in my grandchild’s life.
The biggest problem will be Gabe. He is going to be a bear with a sore paw until she finally comes back, and I know she will be back if we don’t go to her first. No way would she stay away from her parents for too long.
“Are you fu.cking happy now?” Gabe roars as he bangs through the door.
“Calm down, son, Luci will be back, and I will smooth everything over for you” I say, trying to calm him the fu.ck down.
“And what makes you think she will listen to an a.sshole like you?” He growls at me while fixing me with a deadly stare.
“Tone that sh.it down. I am still your father and prez boy” I say, bristling at the disrespect.
“No you are not, you may still be my father, but I was made prez just before you drugged me and sent that rapey a.ssed cu.nt to me” he says beyond pi.ssed.
“It was hardly ra.pe, don’t be such a soft pr.ick about it” I scoff.
“I am not even going to bother explaining this sh.it to you, you fu.cking peice of sh.it. Things are going to change around here, so either get with the program or I have no problem kicking you out on your a.ss.” he says before stalking away.
“Don’t change too much, son, or the brothers will walk, just some friendly advice” I call after him.
“Keep your advice, I will happily send them off myself if they have a problem. You should be more concerned with the fact you beat an innocent woman, one you were supposed to love and protect, and you may have killed your own child with your own hands” he says without even turning around before he slams his way out the door again.
I had managed to put that sh.it out of my mind by concentrating on the Luci and Gabe situation. Now it is right up in there, making me picture how bloody and broken my Gracie was that day. It is an image that has played in my dreams on the regular.
Now though when I wake up in a cold, sweat, I can no longer bullsh.it myself into thinking it was justified, and she got what she deserved.
I really hope that Digit gets back to me soon with some news about both Luci and Gracie. I may have another kid out there, and I need to know that my son or daughter is alright, or I dont know if I will be able to look in the mirror again.
Baloo warned me over and over again that I would regret my actions. He tried to tell me I was going to ruin not only my own life but my kids too. I was too sure of myself to take him seriously. I hope to fu.ck there is no afterlife or mom will be haunting my a.ss over this.
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