Cole I leave Hannah's apartment, fearing that if I don't push myself to put further distance between us, that I will barge my way back in there and beg for her to be mine. Leaving her, no matter how much I want to respect her wishes, is a feeling I can't bare. At this point, I will drop to my knees and plead with her to give me a chance. Pushing her aside last night after every dream of mine was coming true was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I wanted to continue. I wanted to cross the line and forge a connection with her that will be forever ours. I wanted to brand her mine and sink so far deep inside her that she would've been ruined for all other guys. I wanted that bond to be ours to remember for a lifetime but my conscience decided to come into play and that is why I pushed her

