To Love and Avenge

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Entering our empty room, I quickly remove my clothes and slowly walk to the mirror to look at my reflection. Leaving all my worries and doubts behind. I smiled at myself at the woman in front of me…

My tummy which used to be flat and toned is now starting to bulge, watching at it lovingly while caressing this small yet greatest treasure I ever have was like living in eternity.

Not realizing that my tears have been falling abundantly already by just staring at the very lovely sight in front of me.

The contentment and happiness I felt in my heart are exceptional and overwhelming.

It was like something was stuck inside me that I needed to release or I will be drowned by it. A very indescribable feeling. It feels… ...It feels, something great, something beyond explanation. Then,

“Mom, look at me. I am becoming like you. I never fail you right? But don't worry, I won't forget my promise to you. Are you happy as I am?” I whispered softly in the air, still smiling into my reflection.

I stayed at it for God knows how long. The numbing sensation that started to be noticeable

I was so lost by the thought that I didn't even realize that somebody has been watching me silently through the slightly ajar door.

Then, slowly approaches from behind me.

Still too engrossed in my self-thought, someone was finally now positioned himself behind me without taking even my slightest attention.

Just then that I make known his presence when he suddenly encircled his arms around me. Grasp me right below my arms and held me tightly to him. He rested his hands right above my hands on top of my bum. Intertwining it.

"Where have you been. I was so worried." He later gently said after a long silence.

Bending down, he heaves a sigh of relief as he rested his chin on my shoulder and kissed me softly from there.

I open my eyes slowly to look at him in the mirror and to meet his tired yet still very adoring, softly staring me back.

"I just want to be alone," I said still looking into his eyes without showing any emotion.

"Why, can you rather find peace somewhere away from me? It would have been better if you told me because I will stay by you and act invisibly to you." he calmly said as he tighten his embrace.

"Hmmm," I only hum in response. I don't want to further this discussion, but I want us to stay this way, this close and this calmly.

"you're going to shower/" He later asked.

I nodded in response. so, he retracted himself and back away a little, and said.

"Okay, let's go. I'll help you." he offered and grab me by my waist leading me inside.

I just let him lead me silently inside.

I know, he wanted to asked about today's, but on the other side wanted to remain in this peaceful manner. I am too, which is why I avoided to talk to him my concerns. I wasn't necessary anyway.

I will rather just do it myself.

He quickly walk to the tub, fill the water in and adjusted its temperature before he carefully guided me inside.

I followed him obediently and never asked him to leave. I wanted to be along in this moment, but I wanted him to be beside me. Thus, I simply slip in the water and close my eyes to rest.

"Are you still mad at me?" he asked and squatted beside me as he started to scrub my back.

"Im not mad, just a mere disappointment. But it's okay now." I said without opening my eyes.

"I just want you to be safe," and he turn so he have me face to face.

I open my eyes and have seen his ever sincere one.

"Believe me, I know you are doing this for me. And I understand you, so can we please drop this issue?"

then, he reached out to me and kissed me understandingly.

Not long after soaking myself and now finally feel a little cold.

He folded his sleeves up to his elbow and hover above me. I look up at him in confusion when he suddenly coaxes me out of

the tub.

I was dripping wet and soak his white sleeved shirt, but he doesn't care at all, walking out and placing me gently on the chair by the vanity.

He then took a robe and a towel and started to dry me.

"Wait for me here." then he walks to change his soaked clothing and change into a set of plain pajamas. On his hand was another set of the same color as his, then place it on the bed.

He walk back to me and took the hairdryer and patiently started comb and dry it.

I was like asking him to stop and do it myself instead, but seeing him how he thoroughly do it all, suggest that he don't want to be stopped.

"I always want to serve you." he said out of nowhere.

I smile at him upon hearing him said this. Because, he was never been this submissive, and never served anyone.

he was always known to be arrogant, ill-tempered and above all he is ruthless. He shows no mercy to anyone.

So, seeing this side of him warm my heart and love for him even more.

"Stop staring," he said. Yes, I was staring at him through the mirror and I don't want to leave even a single glance of him.

This sight was very rare to look at, which made me want to stare more and not waste any single of it. I don't want to mess a thing.

"I love you," I said instead. Hearing no response from him, I turn around to look up at him and expectanty wait for his response, but...

...but I fail.