Jena
You know when you feel like everything you do is just a repeat of everything you did the day before? Like you are just going through the motions but you aren't really mentally there. You smile and you talk, you eat and you sleep, but it is like you outside of your body, watching someone else steer it. That is how I have felt every day since I told John that I didn't want him in my life. I don't feel pain or sadness or joy for that matter. I just feel numb. A month and a week, that is how long I have felt like the walking f*****g dead. Not dead, but definitely not alive.
My mother got me a job as an assistant and I honestly can't tell you what I did for her an hour ago, because I just can't get myself to care about what I am doing. In the three weeks I have worked for Esmeralda at h
