LISA I have only been a few days on base and I am slowly getting the hang of things. There is not a moment that goes by that I do not think about Brian and if he has woken up and where he is. I start to wonder if I did the right thing and if maybe I should not have been such a coward as I have been. But I am happy that I am here as I really feel that I am making a difference in the emotional state of the soldiers that are serving their country. Although, I find it difficult to treat a pilot because it is like I am looking at Brian. I just finished my session and am on my way back to my house. This time, my dad made sure that I am looked after and housed me in the upper-rank soldiers’ houses. I know that I am not supposed to be treated like this but for some reason, it feels really